MeLLoNiSeR

Life is never as sweet as it sounds. A short 4 letter word. Compact, simple but in reality complicated. This oh-so-delicious photo of fried wedges and korokke may look really really tasty, but you might never know how hard it is to grow them, the farmers have to wait for them for several weeks, the hard work to harvest, to cook, to mix all the ingredients, peel them, shaped them, then finally frying them and decorate them so it looks eatable and tingly in your mouth.... Therefore, in order to become fruitful in life, we have to strive and create necessary things to support our life to become... FRUITFUL. I as a person, think so much about things that maybe other people do not usually worry about. What can I do? I am this type of person. Maybe that's why Daddy and I can really relate to each other. We are both feelers and feed on people's emotions to stay alive. When our partners are not in tune with us, we simply feel unloved-while in reality, maybe they love us ...

Even if I have to walk in the valley of darkness. I am not afraid because the Lord is with me. Even if mountains of problems are approaching me I am not afraid because You are with me I believe, your blessings are abundant. Your kindness and forgiveness have blessed me. I may not understand what is held against me in the future. But I have faith. Dear God, I am grateful for everything that has happened to me. I can no longer protect what is mine. Please forgive me and forgive those who have hurt me. Thank you Papa J.... .............................................................................................................................. ーーーーーーーーーーーーーーーーーーーーーーーーーーーーーー　 今、私はもう手上げた。 もう分からない。 神様、私はたくさん悪いことをやちゃった。。。自分はがっかりすることがたくさんある。。。 家族は私にがっかりされる。。。 神様、許してください! 神様、私は神様の愛はも一度近くしたい。 アーメン。

WE WISH YOU A MERRY BLUE ILLUMINATION! ILLUMINATION! ILLUMINATION On the 29th of November, Wow yeah almost 3 weeks ago, I went to an illumination event in Shinjuku. It is common in Japan that famous tourist spots like Shinjuku, Roppongi Hills or even Chiba's Doitsu Mura (German Village) holding illumination events that can sometimes last up to next year's Valentine's Day. Amazing Japan! ! ! ! ! I went to the one in Shinjuku with my 3 friends, I guess we were all free, nothing to do, since towards the end of the year it is HOLIDAY that you are waiting for the most. And this is just a prelude to the amazing holiday that we'll have! hahahahahahaha Well, for any of you that are not in Tokyo, what kind of illumination events are held or have you ever been to one? Who did you go with? I'd like to know your comments!! Okay, now the pics, enjoy! Blue, white, gold, silvery lights! The ceiling is also decorated with lights, can you imagine how much efforts t...

AUTUMN! WINTER!AUTUMN!WINTER! A man looking @ me taking picture of him -NOT- trees ... To be honest, I don't know if I should call this Autumn anymore because I feel it's winter already. The coldness sharply pricking into my skin and no matter how thick my jacket is I seem to be unable to get rid of it. Sorry, but winter is never my thing even in Australia. The winter in Australia is pretty mild compared to Japan. At most it got up to 2 degrees ONCE in my 11 years in Australia. But on average it is almost always around 6-7 degrees in Sydney that is. Anyways, when I was still doing my exchange, it got up to 0 degrees in Chiba and it was beautiful because it snowed and all of us went to the 'Star Area' and played with snow well them not me, I was just a bystander.. Told ya, I don't really like coldness. :D I remembered commuting to school with my bicycle and wearing gloves but at the end, my knuckles still went blue. Now I get it, wear leather gloves! :P ...

HAPPY NEW YEAR! HAPPY NEW YEAR! NEW YEAR, GoodBye Tiger YEAR---- HELLO RABBIT YEAR!!!!!!!! Oh wow, it is 2011 ............................ again..... WOW................................. LOL I know, I am just very speechless, almost 1 year 3 months ago I was just getting ready to prepare myself departing to Japan Almost 1 year ago, I was heartbroken by my best friend. LOL Almost 1 year ago, I was travelling around Hokkaido with my sister LOL. And now, all the past should just go in the past but reminiscing is as always fun to do. You learned alot and may laugh by yourself for the things that you have done or regret of the things that you have not done. But 2010 is 2010. NOW .... ladies and gentlemen... is 2011 !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Celebrating New Year in Japan, is not the same as how I used to celebrate New Year in Sydney or in Jakarta. Would you like to know a little glimpse of what Japanese people do during New Year? ...

LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVEEEEEEEE Whoop Whoop... almost less than a week till Valentine's Day. I have been opening up my Youtube account and all these girls are all posting their tutorials on how to make up for Valentine. LOL Last year, 2 days before Valentine's Day, I made 30 chocolate bags for my friends in Chiba University. I bought almost 10 bars of chocolate, heat them up in the pan and melt and poured each single drop of white and milk chocolate into the paper cups. In each little chocolate bag, I wrote a little private message for each one of them and on top of every chocolate, I put my friends' initial name. As you can see there is the K or M, or S, or R ahhahahaha It was very tiring but the end product is pretty. This one is my favorite and it is such a good memory. This one I made specially for my now good friend long time ago and I got a return chocolate on White day. As you know, in Japan, girls usually give chocolates to guys on the 14th. Usually they co...

Firstly, let me just laugh by myself for a bit. HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHHAHAHA I am feeling a bit depressed right now because there are a lot of things twirling in my head. Maybe because I have been studying in Japan in an almost-serious manner for nearly 10 months but I only improve VERY LITTLE. It is not that I do not study, I DO study but when I compare myself with my fellow classmates who are Koreans and Chinese, I seem to lack a lot of grammar points and difficult/formal vocabularies. But right now I just want to OPENLY praise Koreans. LOL WHY? Because I am jealous. Yes, when I am jealous, I praise people. Weird? That's me! I don't use jealousy to become the green eyed monster, creating havoc OR build up Killing Aura that can be detected 10 m radius. Nahh.... I channel it to a good cause. Okay, WHY DO I FEEL JEALOUS? There is a story to this. This morning, just as I arrived in Ryougoku Eki to board my favourite bustling crowded train (Sobu Train),...