MeLLoNiSeR

Life is never as sweet as it sounds. A short 4 letter word. Compact, simple but in reality complicated. This oh-so-delicious photo of fried wedges and korokke may look really really tasty, but you might never know how hard it is to grow them, the farmers have to wait for them for several weeks, the hard work to harvest, to cook, to mix all the ingredients, peel them, shaped them, then finally frying them and decorate them so it looks eatable and tingly in your mouth.... Therefore, in order to become fruitful in life, we have to strive and create necessary things to support our life to become... FRUITFUL. I as a person, think so much about things that maybe other people do not usually worry about. What can I do? I am this type of person. Maybe that's why Daddy and I can really relate to each other. We are both feelers and feed on people's emotions to stay alive. When our partners are not in tune with us, we simply feel unloved-while in reality, maybe they love us ...

Life's been pretty good lately, seriously. I feel God has answered one of my prayers in life, at least for now :) Even though there are many mishaps such as being ID-checked by Japanese policemen TWICE!! (at least that's how I think of it hahaha) Killer teacher in school!! Also, having a fugu attack and causing numbness. I, with all my heart, am willing to accept humbly. I will not complain, brood, or curse myself or God. OF course, He is the one who creates me. I have to accept myself and same goes for everyone out there who doubts themselves. You have to be strong!!! You are not alone!!! You know.............. I will slowly smile again. I will slowly laugh again. I will slowly regain my confidence. I will improve and perpetuate the things that need to be carried on. I will too, someday, love again. Because God is love... in Him, I have hope and faith. I believe like a little child, that everything happens for the best, in His time not ours. So in the meanwhile,, embrace life ...

Above is the group picture of the Architectural Design class field trip. I forgot where to.. OMG. hahahaha Anyway, this is my 4th last week in Chiba University. I am very sad when I think of spending my last few weeks here, the place where I fell in and out of love with people, the friendships I've made with countless numbers of people whom I treasure, the people I've found annoying to the bone but still grew some love for them in friendship and even the very open-minded Sensei who loves listening to my screwed-up Japanese for 2 hours every week and share a lot of love, family, career stories. I truly met amazing people. But the journey has yet to end. I learn a lot and arriving in Japan with knowing little vocabularies and no Japanese friends (yeah, blame my gym regime for taking over most of my time hahaha i love gym too much in Sydney :P), I surely made it alright not due to my own strength but because of prayers FROM family and friends who put their tremendous faith in God ...