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LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVEEEEEEEE Whoop Whoop... almost less than a week till Valentine's Day. I have been opening up my Youtube account and all these girls are all posting their tutorials on how to make up for Valentine. LOL Last year, 2 days before Valentine's Day, I made 30 chocolate bags for my friends in Chiba University. I bought almost 10 bars of chocolate, heat them up in the pan and melt and poured each single drop of white and milk chocolate into the paper cups. In each little chocolate bag, I wrote a little private message for each one of them and on top of every chocolate, I put my friends' initial name. As you can see there is the K or M, or S, or R ahhahahaha It was very tiring but the end product is pretty. This one is my favorite and it is such a good memory. This one I made specially for my now good friend long time ago and I got a return chocolate on White day. As you know, in Japan, girls usually give chocolates to guys on the 14th. Usually they co...

On this public holiday, I felt much better because I feel I am so blessed with a pretty morning. It was snowing or the term that I call "shaved ice" fell down from the sky. Wearing my short pants and my "I love Sydney" T-shirt, I scrammed out of my bed, opened the window, ran downstairs and opened the door embracing the white dandruff... hahahahaha Anyway, Around a week ago I was planning to do something on this day, this PUBLIC HOLIDAY with him, but things turned out this way. If we were here today I would have asked him to come out to Odaiba hahahahaha But, as I know now, it will never come true... All I can do now is just to patiently and wish you well and take care no matter where you are. Waiting is painful and I thought you know how it felt, but you're doing it to me.... hahaha But it is okay. I am an adult woman. I can manage. I know forgiveness is hard, but I want to do it because I don't like keeping grudges. It only makes life fee...

Hahahahaa..... I am back!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am still alive and well, I have not lost that much weight, still chubby and never really thought on anything that's related to dieting. :D Anyways, I just took this picture trying out this gorgeous dress, for around 40AUD. Not bad ey? I didn't buy it FYI. OK, let's talk about what have I been doing. Well, please forgive me for neglecting this blog, but it's never my intention ! I've been quite busy working, yes, thanks Lord, finally I nailed a job in this hard time. But, it does not come with a cheap price, well I can't disclose many things here since the internet is a free space, with no privacy. Well, I got a job offer back in the middle of December and currently been working for almost 2 months. 3 months is the probation period, and hopefully afterwards I get reviewed on my work performance. I pretty much enjoy my job without the politics...

This song is so sweet. Taken from his page! hehehe Not that it is intended to me, but the song is good enough for me to replay it thousand times a day. LOL Here is the lyrics: Yeahh.. Girl I've been searchin so long thru this world trying to find someone who could be what my picture of love was to me and you came along When I saw you I knew you were the one the love that I've been dreamin of I've been waitin for you (waitin for you) all my life for somebody who (somebody who) makes me feel the way I feel when I'm with you, baby have you been waitin too cuz I've been waitin for you Girl I've been saving my love all this time cuz I knew someday I would find the one that i've loved for so long in my mind From the moment that I looked in your eyes I saw the girl I've loved all my life I've been waitin for you (waitin for you) all my life for somebody who (somebody who) makes me feel the way I feel when I'm with you, baby have you been waitin too caus...

Just a thought that made me realise something. "How can one opt to treat someone, take everything away from her with no thank you- no sorry, no goodbye, no nothing... I realised I was treated like a 女郎" けど、私は相変わらずその人を愛してる。。。 泣いてる 泣いてる 泣いてる ササ

After almost a week, I can gradually accept that things do not go according to my plan LOL Of COURSE. We all know why... there is somebody out there who thinks that "IF YOU execute THIS PLAN, YOU MIGHT BE DOOMED mell, DOOM DOOM DOOM DOOOOOOOOOMMM" LOL So, yesterday, I spent almost 80% of my time making Japanese resume, the last 2 bits that I have not done is Shiboudouki and cover letter. But I will write them by this weekend I know it. And I had a great time talking with my family and GOOD NEWS, my friend is coming on Sunday. So I have plenty of fun stories to hear from her. YEEHAA, I wanna strip off her XXX STORIES lolllllllllllllllllllll What is my plan for today? Well, to be honest, AGAIN, if things were the way they were, I would be......doing this n that... Anyway, My friend asked me to go to this lady's house to make food for Sunday's Valentine's event. I mean, I have no problem, I like cooking and talk in Indonesian and usually they use some Japanese Voca...

I finished my exam today. And for the 4th consecutive day, Sobu Sen's densha became my silent witness for my sadness... If the densha can talk and act, I am sure it would hug me tightly.hahaha My current thought: Why are you letting me all alone waiting in the darkness... My future thought: I hope tomorrow is better than today. What happened today: A friend of mine asked me out for lunch, he is much older than me, a very nice man. He works for Nissan auto-maker company and...He can talk non-stop LOL I felt better .... I think people who work alot seemed to be single somehow LOL Afterthought: There is nothing eternal in this world, good things must always come to an end. But at least, the good deeds will always remembered by God because humans are forgetful. Love, Sasa PS: i am back to those days where I will sleep in on Val'z day :D

Kontak pagi + malam= 0. Nice girls are always taken for granted. Nice boys are always taken for granted. Nice girls are played around by playboys. Nice boys are played around by playgirls. When a nice girl meets a nice boy, nice boy will take her for granted stating she is boring and not challenging. When a nice boy meets a nice girl, nice girl will take him for granted stating that he is boring and not challenging. But, when a real man meets a real woman, both have grown up mentality, they can accept each other, sacrifice their own egos for the better harmony. They fully understand a joke is just a joke. Even if they have disagreements, both with a cool head reach AGREEMENT, knowing they have to sacrifice something in themselves in order to be together. I do not even have a reason why I am in love with you. If you love someone because of a reason, then when that reason no longer exists in that person, you will find yourself locked and trapped. You will never be able to love someone wi...

Why is it when people in a relationship hurt each other? It is because there is love theree.... if there is no love ... they wouldn't even care...

B BBaa...ba..... Oink.... Oink..... ... ... * ZOO? YES, WE WENT TO UENO ZOO...!! That, ladies and gentlemen, is a very smart gorilla! HE KNOWS how cold it is and decides to wear a stylish yellow hoodie for himself LOL. Now, if you all know it's winter and still not covering up like my friend here, you know who's smarter by now. HE HE HE HE Cut the story short, I went to Ueno Zoo on the Sunday of the... 2nd! So it is almost 2 weeks ago and please forgive me I have not been updating due to various reasons. I had to say it was one of the best days in my life.... Not because I was led around by fugu-chan but it was because I had the opportunity to eat in Ocha-ya (Tea houses) like in the olden days. Anyways, let's start with Ueno Zoo. This zoo opens at 9:30 am- 5 pm (Ticket office closes at 4 pm) and viewing for some animals ends at 4.30 pm so if you are like me and Fugu, you have to pull the English map suitable for quick reading before the time runs out. LOL The admission ti...

WE WISH YOU A MERRY CHRISTMAS! MERRY ... MERRY ... MERRY ... CHRISTMAS! God bless YOU!! Wow, can you believe that it's Christmas already? I went to Church from 2 pm - 5.30 pm for our Christmas Celebration to remind us again what is the meaning of Christmas. We had a guest speaker, his name is Hiroshi Sakakibara and He talked about "Holy Child" which is Jesus Christ. As a believer, I believe Christmas is to remind us that it is all about Jesus Christ, born into this world to wash away our sins. We should have died and just burned away in Hell because of our sins but redeemed by His blood on the Holy cross. We originally were created as creations that are Holy, but because Adam and Eve fell into sin (death) we have to suffer (experience death). I know Christmas for those who are non-believers mean dinner, exchange gifts and Christmas tree. But believe me, I also DID all that but not many people know the meaning of Christmas. A person who lives under the same house, apparent...

After almost 3.5 weeks not seeing Mr.Fugu cos he was on a business trip to Mie, we finally met up! Yes yes, alot of arguing but also a lot of memories that need to be cherished were made! I can assure you that! (FROM THE ARGUMENTS we had). Me and Fugu are total complete Definite Opposites in E.V.E.R.Y.T.H.I.N.G. But hey, that what makes life interesting isn't it. If not, it will be boring. :D Neways, he came 2 days before Halloween and it is so thoughtful of him to celebrate Halloween by buying me cute candles. And not only that, he bought me a Studying Charm from the famous Ise Shrine which is located in Mie-ken Prefecture to dedicate Japan's Goddess called Amaterasu. And he also bought me jelly Halloween stickers and stick them all over in my room. I KINDA feel my room is a bit spooky now hahahahaha But anyways, I love them, even though I was kind of wishing more. He did not even give me a specific present for my graduation. LOL Nevertheless, I should be grateful enough. More...

Long time no Post. Many things happened!!! What are they? 1. I failed my final exam but I re-did it last Monday and passed it. Now I am in ADVANCED JAPANESE CLASS and oh my God they're hard. 2. I went back to Sydney for 2 weeks SO ....it's like BINGE-EATING non stop..lol and as a result.....*see point #3* 3. I gained another 4 kilos. 4. My graduation will be held in Hong Kong with no friends except my family. 5. I found the love of my life... :D This is him. I have a lot of things to do for the future so, a good plan should be written and be done. Oh btw, I just made a poem it's in indonesian and called "Rindu". Here it is Rindu padamu Bagai teriris ujung pisau Perih meresap Ke dalam pembuluh darah Rindu yang panjang Seakan memalu hati Meleleh rasa hati jiwa Menggapai mencoba mencari Rindu-ku Begitu pilu Sampai air mata Dan kata hanya terbata Because fugu-chyan (yes I gave him that nickname) always goes awaaaaaaaaaaaay on Shucchou (busi...

I wish life is sweet like this oinari-san, when you bite it all that is squeezed out is the sweetness from the sweet egg layer. Yummo.... I am currently right now in the position of doubting. Doubt. Who likes being in doubt? Who likes that word anyway? You are uncertain about the future. Uncertain about what will happen to you. In your head is just non-stop worries. I wish I can stop these evil thoughts, they are swirling and tingling and eating my brains out. I think I should start thinking more positively. Even if I failed my grammar test. Even if I don't know how serious that guy is with me. I will just surrender things in God's hands and still walk moving on! Help me God. Help me... XOXO Sasa

Life's been pretty good lately, seriously. I feel God has answered one of my prayers in life, at least for now :) Even though there are many mishaps such as being ID-checked by Japanese policemen TWICE!! (at least that's how I think of it hahaha) Killer teacher in school!! Also, having a fugu attack and causing numbness. I, with all my heart, am willing to accept humbly. I will not complain, brood, or curse myself or God. OF course, He is the one who creates me. I have to accept myself and same goes for everyone out there who doubts themselves. You have to be strong!!! You are not alone!!! You know.............. I will slowly smile again. I will slowly laugh again. I will slowly regain my confidence. I will improve and perpetuate the things that need to be carried on. I will too, someday, love again. Because God is love... in Him, I have hope and faith. I believe like a little child, that everything happens for the best, in His time not ours. So in the meanwhile,, embrace life ...