MeLLoNiSeR

LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVEEEEEEEE Whoop Whoop... almost less than a week till Valentine's Day. I have been opening up my Youtube account and all these girls are all posting their tutorials on how to make up for Valentine. LOL Last year, 2 days before Valentine's Day, I made 30 chocolate bags for my friends in Chiba University. I bought almost 10 bars of chocolate, heat them up in the pan and melt and poured each single drop of white and milk chocolate into the paper cups. In each little chocolate bag, I wrote a little private message for each one of them and on top of every chocolate, I put my friends' initial name. As you can see there is the K or M, or S, or R ahhahahaha It was very tiring but the end product is pretty. This one is my favorite and it is such a good memory. This one I made specially for my now good friend long time ago and I got a return chocolate on White day. As you know, in Japan, girls usually give chocolates to guys on the 14th. Usually they co...

Firstly, let me just laugh by myself for a bit. HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHHAHAHA I am feeling a bit depressed right now because there are a lot of things twirling in my head. Maybe because I have been studying in Japan in an almost-serious manner for nearly 10 months but I only improve VERY LITTLE. It is not that I do not study, I DO study but when I compare myself with my fellow classmates who are Koreans and Chinese, I seem to lack a lot of grammar points and difficult/formal vocabularies. But right now I just want to OPENLY praise Koreans. LOL WHY? Because I am jealous. Yes, when I am jealous, I praise people. Weird? That's me! I don't use jealousy to become the green eyed monster, creating havoc OR build up Killing Aura that can be detected 10 m radius. Nahh.... I channel it to a good cause. Okay, WHY DO I FEEL JEALOUS? There is a story to this. This morning, just as I arrived in Ryougoku Eki to board my favourite bustling crowded train (Sobu Train),...

On this public holiday, I felt much better because I feel I am so blessed with a pretty morning. It was snowing or the term that I call "shaved ice" fell down from the sky. Wearing my short pants and my "I love Sydney" T-shirt, I scrammed out of my bed, opened the window, ran downstairs and opened the door embracing the white dandruff... hahahahaha Anyway, Around a week ago I was planning to do something on this day, this PUBLIC HOLIDAY with him, but things turned out this way. If we were here today I would have asked him to come out to Odaiba hahahahaha But, as I know now, it will never come true... All I can do now is just to patiently and wish you well and take care no matter where you are. Waiting is painful and I thought you know how it felt, but you're doing it to me.... hahaha But it is okay. I am an adult woman. I can manage. I know forgiveness is hard, but I want to do it because I don't like keeping grudges. It only makes life fee...

Dear... Dear... どこにいるの？ Dear, how are you? Many months have passed, and I always wish you the best in everything. I can't hug to greet you. Where are you, dear? Unfortunately I know nothing, and I hope you always have beautiful starry skies to look at. I can't sit beside you. Who are you with, dear? Thinking about this, breaks my heart, and I wish you surrounded with love. I can no longer hold your hand. What are you doing, dear? Please do things that make you happy........................................ Doing plenty of tasks I believe till late. I can't cook you food for your late night snacks.

Hmm... HMM.. HM...M.M.M.M Who would HAVE thought, that it is nearing the end of September and it has been almost 2 months since I have started job hunting and the result is nil. What ever it is, I am still here in Australia, kind of wishing to go back to see my friends in Japan. But not to worry, Japan can come here LOL One of my friends is coming from Ryougoku and starting his working holiday in Australia soon! He is one of my dearest friends whom I often admire because of his looks. ha ha ha h aha ha h a We call him 'midnight sugar', don't ask me why, but he has this charming look and made u not wanting to wander your eyes' off anywhere else. He's like a kitty I must say. Calm, submissive, loves to smile and laugh, not too crazy like most Japanese men I do know. His skin is so white and he has 2 dimples, like, how rare is it to see a guy with 2 dimples nowadays? ha ha ha Anyway, I am so excited to see him in the near future and hopefully he can imp...

Hi Mom, How are you today? You mean alot to me, like no one else. We might have disagreements, we might have quarrels. But not even one disgraceful word I will utter, to imply I disrespect you. God gave you the responsibility to bear me. The beauty and intelligence that I posses, descended by you. I am jaded by you by God's grace. Mom, I am imperfect and young. The bitterness and sweetness of life is only by half from your wholeness. My wrong decisions, my right decisions were tread and watched by your wise words and by God's permission. I am countable for my acts, but I bear your love and strength on my shoulders. A child may realise that the world is beautiful. But a mom's love, and firmness open the child's eyes to the world's deceiving trickery. The "outsiders" approve my existence. They agree that blood is thicker than water. Even those without blood ties, think that they are thicker than those with blood ties. Love covers mis...

HELLOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.... I forgot what I posted last time since I don't want to look back. BUT, I graduated. From USYD (Sydney Australia), AND CHIBA UNIVERSITY (Japan).  *CLAP CLAP CLAP*  So, I  want to f ast forward everything . I have moved back from Japan to Sydney, looked for a job and didn't make it in Sydney. Somehow, I got an interview in Jakarta then worked in a Japanese company, received numerous promotions and I quit my job after 3 years just when my GM wanted me to take over and entrust me with his whole division. He wanted me to write all 3 departments' Standard Operating Procedures then become a trainer for everyone in the company while at the same time watching and supervising system documentation since our division is the first in the whole Japanese Group *Globally* to integrate such system. I spent like 3 months working alone to write down a system manual handbook and shipped off to China as a sample for their system. I am b...